I have been super sick the past 5 days. Actually started to feel it in my flanks a few weeks ago, which I am use since my channelopathy meds kinda do that with me. But then came the throat. And spiritually I have been down myself. The combo of it all has literally wiped my body's hard drive and and I am doing a complete system reboot. 

Sometimes getting super sick is just that. Your body saying NO MORE, time to reorganize and come out stronger. I know for myself, when I get sick, I get super sick. Sersly I barely have the energy to type this up. I so know in the end I will come out stronger. 

Spiritually I have been a mess. My home life currently has a lot of stress especially in the money side of the house of things. Honestly I am at my breaking point. I have been meditating and doing things I need to do, but not enough. I am not taking the mental breaks. I am not doing me. I am not doing self care. Basically I am not taking care of my own hard drive. 

Why am I using the references of a computer? Well your body is just that one giant computer. Your brain being the hard drive. You have to maintain it. Or it is system failure. Currently I have been in system failure and system upgrade mode. I know this cause I feel like I am changing inside. Things are becoming more clear to me and I am moving pass all the bullshite of life. I am also getting stronger as a lightworker. So I am growing on that path. I am going beyond on all the messes and all of darkness. I am becoming more pushy, yes, I said that. I am in this phase of hey, you got help yourself. You got to do get out of your head and do something. I may come off a little brass for people, but I also know that spirit moves thru me and pushes helps me push people where they need to be pushed towards. 

I am not afraid, but I am afraid. I am more afraid of my own future, cause of where money lies with my family right now, but I am not afraid of who I am. I am my authentic self, and I am ok with that. I know people are going to love me for whom I am no matter what. If they don't, then they never truly loved me in the beginning. That is what you learn on this journey in life. 

This blog is title confessions of a lightworker. I bring you tools to help you, my "guru" side of me (how I hate that term guru, but we will use that term for term sake). But I also bring you hey, I am human side of me. My shortcomings. my struggles. Does this make me a bad "guru"? No, this does not. I live in a reality world. I am enlightened. Very much so, I do live in a "be here now" - I think showing my shortcomings makes me a better lightworker. To quote Ram Dass “It is important to expect nothing, to take every experience, including the negative ones, as merely steps on the path, and to proceed.”

I guess this is my warning label. When you have a cleansing or any type of spiritual detox done your body may react. I have personally have had clients react in several differ ways including myself I have had my own issues with detoxification with attunements after Reiki. So I thought why not write a blog post about it. 
Like any type of detox your body is getting rid of all the yucky stuff. You may just feel awesome and great the day of your treatment and then suddenly all this yucky feeling overcomes you. Any Energy Cleansing releases the blockages in your system, allowing your body to heal naturally. Part of that natural healing process is ridding the body of unwanted toxins that have contributed to your problems. You know all that "yucky stuff".
So one of the greatest things after a treatment I tell my clients is to drink water. I will make clients drink a full glass of water after a treatment. I literally will watch them. In Texas I kept a water cooler in my meditation room and non stop water buffet after sessions. I also made sure clients had water when they left. Why? If you don't drink water you don't flush your system. And you can "get sick". Yes, this has happen. But don't stress, you will feel better afterwards. Remember your body has been thru this amazing transformation. 
If this happens there are ways to manage the side effects of the deep cleanse:

• Modification in the diet and avoiding processed foods- especially fast food/junk food
• Certain meditations may help to alleviate mental and emotional stresses/ mindful breathing
• Express your emotions in a positive way
• Avoiding negative thoughts and situations
• Be around positive people
• A good bowel movement- I know sounds crazy but get rid of the poo! 
• Rest! Get plenty of sleep.
• Spend some time in quiet and peace. This means disconnect. Turn off the social media, turn off the phones if you can. Just turn off and tune in to yourself. 

So what are the possible side effects: Physical symptoms - headaches, stomach upsets, coughs, colds, spots Emotional symptoms - mood swings, tears, anger, guilt, irritability and more.

Remember no matter what you are feeling this is unleashing your emotional well being. You will start to feel better. It is a tune up for your soul. 
Remember not everyone experiences this, I have just found lately that when I have been working with clients of late and including myself in my own attunements, these are things that can happen. I want you to be aware and not caught off guard. 
I will let you know lately I seem to be doing some very heavy hoodoo and removing heavy toxins out of people systems so been having these issues more of the later. Including my own husband, who was very ill the next morning after me doing an intense Reiki session where he stated he saw a small child leave his body and run down the hallway. I have had other people in the past be very emotional, with vivid dreams, feeling lightheaded, feeling not of earth. Everyone is not the same. Your experience is your experience. 
I also have the question how often should I have energy work done then? My answer to that is the universe will let you know. Some need it more than once a week. Some need it once a month, others need it maybe every few months. What you feel you need to do, is up to you. I do not think it is ethical for any energy healer to state you need to xyz amount every xyz days. I am sorry, yes, you can suggest- but to make it like a doctor's appointment is wrong. Your body will let you know. Your body needs to adjust from each cleansing and spiritual detox. 
Love Light and Namaste

When one has spiritual guides and first feeling those guides, it can be scary. Especially if one is to open or not open enough. One may mistake the energy has being evil or bad. This can be very confusing. Also if one thinks, the energy is bad/evil and call in a person to "cleanse" the energy- If that person does not have the right intent then you basically have pissed off guides. So of course, they will make their presence known to the other person to leave them alone. 

I have been getting many calls of late of this exact thing happening. Other people coming into homes and claiming that there is evil in the house, try to "cleanse" the house. Basically, not knowing exactly what they are doing. Let me tell you a little secret. ANY TRUE MEDIUM or ENERGY WORKER knows better to give POWER to something that is truly evil. So if you have someone claiming to come in your house, then freak out, run away- this person is a FRAUD. I am not claiming they never saw anything, but if they truly claim to be an energy worker then they know better to give a,b,c...power.

Evil, loves power. Evil is real. Evil can create some pretty strange stuff in a house. But trust me, you will feel the evil, it effects everyone that comes in the house- cause guess what it loves to feed. So yes, there is truly evil in this world. 

Good, loves you. But it also may try to grab your attention, especially in times of need. It can be through dreams, thoughts, kids, smells, images out of the corner of your eyes. If you have kids, especially those with gifts, it may also try to communicate. Yes, kids, may get cranky- cause kids are confused with gifts, especially if they have no one to help them. If you are going through a trying time in your life and things seem so negative ( remember negative feeds as well) your guides may just slap you in the face. They also may do things, to help direct you in the right direction. If you are not in touch your spiritual side of yourself, yes this is totally scary. Is it evil? No. 

Do understand that in life, it is a journey. We have many roads, paths, roadblocks and more to get to our final end result. The times can be trying. We CAN create our own little potholes. black holes, sinkholes, negative vortexes. WE create them, cause we feed into the negative energy. We listen to outside influences, hard on ourselves, gossip, social media, news and the list goes on. We are in a conflux of negative patterns at all times, due to how our society views the world. There are even times that we believe what is satire to be truth. We give POWER to the untrue. Thus, creating our own swirls of negative vortex, sinkholes. We allow this power to feed. The truth of the matter is THIS HAS NO POWER, we are in complete control of that "power" so to speak. Everything in life has a vibration (hence why the bible is such a powerful tool) 

I often ask many of the people I work with to write down things that bother them on paper, fold it up and write the simple words THIS HAS NO POWER. Become the lotus out of the muck.

Also, if you do feel that there is truly evil in your life, you can use this vibration tool of saying OUTLOUD- THIS HAS NO POWER. 

One who is gifted knows these rules, if they have harnessed the power of love and light. Please be wary, if the person you are working with does not feel right to you, then don't work with them. Not saying they are a bad person/energy worker etc. I am simply stating that the vibration is NOT right for you. Most important whomever you are working with make sure they are doing everything in love, light and positive. Positive vibrations balance out the negative. POSITIVE thoughts, are stronger than anything bad/evil in this world. 

Love and Light