As the world around me is shifting, including myself and my own surroundings. I have been seeking mediation states more and more everyday. Whilst during listening to random song choices of Pandora's David Bowie channel, headphone game on strong. I got lost in the vibrations of a song (don't ask me I don't have a clue what song) which I often do when my meditation game is strong. For me I follow the song waves and they become something entirely different than the actual song playing for the moment. They become like currents for me to hitch rides to a higher vibrational frequency. Which is why I use sound during my healing sessions.
I found myself in 5D drifting higher until I came across the only thing I can say was a void. But this void was all the frequency of higher collectives merging as one.
My body was no longer my body. I was pure energy. I could see the flicks of energy bouncing back in and out of this what only I can say was a vortex of light. I become closer and closer, free. Nothing around me had an existence. I was for that moment in 7D. Then suddenly something happen.
I saw a figure come towards me, it was different because in the void of light it was dark. It was oddly strange, I remember saying to myself "dad?". As soon as I said that the figure went thru me, I remember suddenly my body jerked. I opened my eyes, but I couldn't see. So I closed them to return. However, that jerk set me what I can only describe as "out of frequency" with the 7D. It was like my energy was for a moment kinda like static electricity trying to enter. I could see my own frequency pattern jagged. Kinda reminded me of what you would see on a heart monitor.
The next thing I knew my phone rang. I belong to an online gaming community and only a few have my number. It was from one of those members. Only reason this person would cal me is because of game. So that call knocked me clear back to earth. But I was not really on earth.
I went to my game did a roll call, since when I answered no one was on the other end. Thought to myself strange, nothing is going on in the game. Then it dawned on me, my friend who called is a geologist. I just laughed sent him a message about his call and how it sent me back to earth. The strange thing was my vision was super blurry. Like my eyes could not focus.
So after I sent him the message, spirit told me to check the time I got the call. I first read it as 655, because of my vision being they way it was. Ok, got the message. Then I was talking to my husband about the message. Mind you I was still in 4D at this time, so although I was aware of my surroundings I was what you can say "not all there".
I tried to focus on coming back from the meditation. Spirit called to me again, check time. I looked at my phone it was slightly past 6pm. Then it clicked the phone call could have not come in at that time. So I looked at time again of the phone call 5:55pm I just bursted out laughing. Shortly after I got a message from my game friend stating his 2 year had his phone and he apologized for calling. I laughed when I heard it was a 2 year old, I had been getting messages of 222 combos all week.
It took some time for my vision to come back.
This experience is exactly what I needed. I feel free of burdens that have been bothering me all week.
I will admit I have been super sensitive to others vibrations. But I pushed whatever was given to me back out to this plane of existence.
I took myself off facebook, yet this will be posting on facebook, irony. I have however for the sake of social media I had scheduled posts already before making the leap off for the week after Christmas. It was a clearing of my head. The first few days, boredom took over. I don't have my other auto and the rain has given me cabin fever of sorts. But yesterday I was able to get outside. Fresh air at 38F. Well needed.
Like most of the end of the years I reflect and thankful for what the year gave me and what it did not give me. The highs and the lows. The growths and the many blessings thru all the struggles this year. I got really bad news yesterday about my dad. It was news I did not want to hear. I know in 2016 I will have more struggles and some lows. I also I will have some very awesome highs because the universe is very awesome and loves me and has my back.
I got a few calls today, one was thanking me for posting the video on facebook today, it was just what they needed to hear. Which I found comforting in my own way, earlier this week right after I had posted the other video. A another text came in from someone else I know that begged me to not stop making my videos. This was from someone I had known for a long time. I was unaware that she even watched any of my videos. She told me she watched all of them, and they changed her life. I told her thanks, the universe sent me that message just in time. I had been struggling so much of late. I have so much of finding my words due to my disability. i am very educated, but this year has been the worse year for me health wise. But the universe had my back this year, I have been blessed with amazing doctors. I am finally after many years getting the help I need. Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes you get thrown on a path where you wonder why you get thrown on. I always tell people, you have to be patient there is a reason. Don't question. Even when you think the world is going to shit around you, trust that there will be good coming out of the muck. Sometimes you have to go thru a little rough waters.
I think in life it's if you want to fight it, or let go of ego and go with it. You can try and try and try and try and try.....but there is a point you just have to let go and trust in where the universe is going to lead you. Don't get me wrong you are your own compass, but if you fight certain things where the universe is pushing you towards- honey hang up your compass and just let go. That is the greatest lesson I learned when we packed up our life savings, husband quit his job of 18 years and we moved to the PNW. By the grace of the universe, our rent is paid monthly ( and trust me the months we are talkings pennies on making that rent payment) so we still have a roof over our head. So that I count my blessings and ever grateful, but I had to hang my own compass to trust that there is a reason why my husband has not found the better paying job yet. There is a reason for A-B-C- and you know...I have some health stuff that came up if I have private insurance I could not pay for. So I look at the positive side, maybe this is what the universe has in store and after this test then it will fall in place, so this is what lays ahead for 2016. And you know what.....universe keeps telling me I am not meant to work a 9-5 job anyways. I meant to focus on being Hamsa Sandra, because now more and more people are being vocal- and I will be honest, sometimes I tap the mic and wonder " is this thing on?"
2016 is upon us...I am ready to be my best for you. I tap into source all the time and I have messages I want to get across. But I am also cautious. I want the messages to be heard to those who are hungry for it. Who are willing to do the work, who are willing to invest in themselves.
I wish everyone Love and Light! PS- There is specials going on in the stores! FYI!! Heads up!!
I am chuckling about my choice of title for this week blog post. I kinda do feel very Leeloo at times and in a way the type of starseed For pop culture sake I am a bit like a Leeloo, no wonder why my husband loves that movie so much and I do as well. LOL The clicks in my head, but then again that is what this entire week has been about.
One of the main questions I get asked a lot is where do I get the knowledge I know. Did I learn it somewhere. What books did I read, etc. Most will be surprised, I don't read a lot of "new age" books. I have books. I use books for references. I know authors, but when I read them, the read is more of a validation of knowledge I have known all my life. It sounds kinda of cocky I know. But as a star seed our brains are wired very interesting. But to answer that question honestly, I get the information and my knowledge from source. It's already in my brain, it just get's accessed when I need to use it. Kinda like a computer accessing files.
Before my ataxia took over my body I was a multitasker like crazy. My thirst for knowledge was the same way. Well, it still is I am just a bit slower now, but the material I like to study are kinda wacky and random. I mean who takes a MIT to understand molecular biology and convert DNA sequence to RNA sequence to protein sequence by the great professor Eric S. Lander Take his Introduction to Biology- The Secret of Life if you want to challenge yourself. You will be folding proteins fun stuff! Okay slightly off topic but not really. But this is how my brain has always worked. I have more manuals and educational type books in my home than I have normal reading books. Kinda a star seed trait.
When I was a kid my books was George Orwell, Isaac Asimov, Ray Bradbury, with a mix of Nancy Drew. I loved them, because I was eager to solve them. I also was a lover of classics Lewis Carroll and Poe. As an adult I own books about Ram Dass, Buddhist teachings and more. But I only peer into them, when seeking help to get my point across or in need of inspiration.
I have been peeling away many layers of my star seed self. I knew I was a star seed as a child, because I never felt like I belong. I would hear stories from my father how my mother thought she was an alien herself. My father thinking she was bat shit crazy, so of course I kept my own feelings of feeling "alien" myself.
I saw arch angel Micheal as a child, he saved me more than once. I knew just growing up that things were not right. I did not have the kindest upbringing in my life. But I somehow managed to survive. I remember trying to run away one time when I was about 8th grade. I snuck out my window in the middle of the night, I just looked at the stars. I did not know where I was going to go, but it was freedom for a brief moment. And it was like the stars guided me back home, telling me, nope- you have to go back no matter. The sky and nature have always guided me. Just one of those other traits.
As I got older my I knew my dreams of becoming an astronaut was not going to be real, but I did join the service as a secret squirrel for a little while. I think that is when my own activation started. I started noticing people, and objects, and was in touch with my past lives. Basically in my 20s I kinda went coco puff crazy. I was vibing with the wrong and right people. Was pulled in way to many directions and had a few crash a burns. I would say more crashes than anything else. It happens. I was completely ungrounded. Also I was unaware of how old I was.
So we fast forward to my 40s. I turn 45 in January. And in the past 5 years I have been more in touch with my ancients than I have ever in my life. I have been able to transform the rest of my DNA that I need at this present time. I feel I am about 90% activated, and will never be at 100% because well that is pure source light. But in human form I will take the 90%. The funny thing about this all is I have had to go thru what I call the test by fire. Almost a test if I am worthy of being the key. And the past 5 years have been some very trying times in my life. I have love, lost, grieved, still grieving, joy, gratitude and many blessings. Yes, I am out weighting the negative, I am tipping my scales. That is what you have to do in life, tip your scales.
I had to figure out I am my own Fifth Element. I am the weapon that can fight off the evil that surrounds myself and other's around me. HEHE back to that Hamsa again. I am that divine light human form. I may not be fighting off a alien race to stop the great evil, I mean after all that is just a movie. But as a star seed I can tell you this, even thou that was just a movie, everyone has light within them, to stop hate. To promote peace, love and understanding. Our world needs that more now than ever. So take charge of your inner Leeloo and find your divine light. Become your own Fifth Element.
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