"Spiritual development can be seen as a purging process in which you gradually root out the obstacles that keep you from your essence. In this sense, treading the spiritual path is not usually the easiest road to follow. In doing so you might be confronted with your darkest corners and your not so attractive traits, but in this process of growing awareness you also strengthen your life foundations. If you skip steps in your growth process, or if previous phases in your development have received inadequate attention, you are vulnerable to achieve a drifting spirituality that is not sufficiently anchored in your human existence, or a spirituality that has gone overboard and does not take into account a nuanced reality and the sensitivities of others." Leijssen Mia
I have been thinking alot about surrending and purging in my own life and how it affects my own spirituality. I am watching human existence in it's own growth patterns or purges and defining moments. How obstacles, seem to challenge more than others. The state of affairs. How this becomes an awakening, yet a double edge sword. How the older generation doesn't understand the younger generation, where there is a finding of oneself, yet a unauthentic self that is a decay- is this the road that is easiest to follow? Have humans forgotten, that the life path is not straight and narrow. That in development, there will be failures and successes both. The darkest corners of the mind, can result the greatest changes in the human spirit. Understanding that loving one another is more powerful than hate. How hate and fear can kill someone, not only mentally but physically as well. Where sometimes, the power and want of change, manifests into more rage, cause one has drifted from the subconscious- where proving a point, is really not proving anything. Where love gets lost and where love is found. All in our reality. Where does the spiritual path lay?
I would love to hear where your spiritual path lays. What are the defining moments for you? What anchors you? What are your foundations? What are your obstacles? What are your strengths? What do you need to purge?
I have been wondering how to write this post. I mean, the last thing everyone knew was hey I am in Portland, then hey I am back in Washington state. So I thought I would write about.
Portland was a lesson. Portland was a lesson that not only for myself but also my dear nephew whom I was sharing a house with to go through. Portland, was wonderful. I really liked Portland, even though the highways, caused me major anxiety, but I loved that I was so close to everything. But Portland, was also bringing about a lot of door closures. The weather was delaying my husband from moving our household goods, my husband's work was having nothing but problems trying to hire people to take his place, even though my husband was slated to transfer to Portland. At one point my husband was one of two people doing his job, the universe did not want my husband there. The universe wanted me in Portland, but not my husband. We was separated. It was so difficult. Here we was homeless for so long and finally had a place to go, and everything was keeping us apart. But for me, I had to be in Portland at the time. I do not regret my time in Portland, it happened for a reason. Lessons was learned. But I was sadden when I had to return back to Washington last month. It broke my heart, but also I was happy because I was near my husband and my rock.
Last month, I thought to myself here we go again, I am staying with my soul sister. Which since last June, we had been staying there due to our homelessness. I ask the universe within myself, there needs to be a change. As I was now feeling like a burden on my soul sister. Let me note, I am far from a burden, but I am respectful of my sister, therefore asking her to not only to take me in, but now my son whom flew out to live in January. It weighs heavy on your heart, you do the things you can to help out etc, but it is her house and her things and you start to feel in the way after awhile, because this was only suppose to be a temporary thing not a permanent gig. As you can tell, this has been a huge struggle for me. So yes, when I asked the universe within, I just proclaimed a surrender.
I started to look for housing. I started the process all over again, prepared myself a little better this time. I don't carry credit cards, and don't have a credit score above 600 therefore I knew the process was going to be hard. But I took deep breathes and formulated a plan- I allowed the road to be open.
See Portland taught me what I really wanted, so allowing myself to be open to what I really wanted instead of settling, I allowed the laws of success to come my way. The manifestations of not only what my husband wanted, but what my son needs and I need in life. My family will be taking over as caretakers for a dog sanctuary. I am beyond the moon about this. The best part of this experience, is not only will I be helping out animals but humans as well, since we will be having volunteers out there from different various programs. So as the door closed in Portland, the road opened for us in Washington.
Hands of Hope Sanctuary will be our new home. I will continue to do my practices out there once we relocated. I can not wait to share with everyone the happiness and peace. Never be afraid if a door closes, because the road is just opening up.
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