I have been wondering how to write this post. I mean, the last thing everyone knew was hey I am in Portland, then hey I am back in Washington state. So I thought I would write about.
Portland was a lesson. Portland was a lesson that not only for myself but also my dear nephew whom I was sharing a house with to go through. Portland, was wonderful. I really liked Portland, even though the highways, caused me major anxiety, but I loved that I was so close to everything. But Portland, was also bringing about a lot of door closures. The weather was delaying my husband from moving our household goods, my husband's work was having nothing but problems trying to hire people to take his place, even though my husband was slated to transfer to Portland. At one point my husband was one of two people doing his job, the universe did not want my husband there. The universe wanted me in Portland, but not my husband. We was separated. It was so difficult. Here we was homeless for so long and finally had a place to go, and everything was keeping us apart. But for me, I had to be in Portland at the time. I do not regret my time in Portland, it happened for a reason. Lessons was learned. But I was sadden when I had to return back to Washington last month. It broke my heart, but also I was happy because I was near my husband and my rock.
Last month, I thought to myself here we go again, I am staying with my soul sister. Which since last June, we had been staying there due to our homelessness. I ask the universe within myself, there needs to be a change. As I was now feeling like a burden on my soul sister. Let me note, I am far from a burden, but I am respectful of my sister, therefore asking her to not only to take me in, but now my son whom flew out to live in January. It weighs heavy on your heart, you do the things you can to help out etc, but it is her house and her things and you start to feel in the way after awhile, because this was only suppose to be a temporary thing not a permanent gig. As you can tell, this has been a huge struggle for me. So yes, when I asked the universe within, I just proclaimed a surrender.
I started to look for housing. I started the process all over again, prepared myself a little better this time. I don't carry credit cards, and don't have a credit score above 600 therefore I knew the process was going to be hard. But I took deep breathes and formulated a plan- I allowed the road to be open.
See Portland taught me what I really wanted, so allowing myself to be open to what I really wanted instead of settling, I allowed the laws of success to come my way. The manifestations of not only what my husband wanted, but what my son needs and I need in life. My family will be taking over as caretakers for a dog sanctuary. I am beyond the moon about this. The best part of this experience, is not only will I be helping out animals but humans as well, since we will be having volunteers out there from different various programs. So as the door closed in Portland, the road opened for us in Washington.
Hands of Hope Sanctuary will be our new home. I will continue to do my practices out there once we relocated. I can not wait to share with everyone the happiness and peace. Never be afraid if a door closes, because the road is just opening up.
When setting intentions especially on things you want, we forget to have the courage to allow ourselves the permission to ask for what we want in life. We tend to get caught up inside our heads, thinking we are not worthy. You get in life what you ask for, therefore you need to start removing the negative headspace and rewire your brain and allow the positive to flow.
Best way to do this is to list what is keeping you from moving forward. What negative headspace are you currently in, that is keeping you to have the courage to ask for what you want?
Write them down on a piece of paper. Now, RETHINK. Your brain is ready to be rewired. It is craving the rewiring. It KNOWS once the rewire happens, you will not only feel better, but have the courage to set you life in motion.
Courage is always there, we learnt that in the famous story of the cowardly lion. He had courage all along, he just had to find it and overcome his fear.
Below is a starter list on how to rewire your brain.
If you have anger, forgive yourself. Forgiveness of self, allows you to forgive others. If you feel betrayal, seek the positive aspect, you now know the truth. Truth is a very freeing emotion if you allow it. Fear, the greatest of the all. We live in a fear base society. Fear, is what most likely lead you to reading this post. Fear was the cowardly lion's enemy. But he was also courageous and loyal, which was comfort. Doubt; doubt is another tricky bugger. It normally tags along with fear. But doubt, can be changed to peace. Without doubt, there is peace. The list goes on. This list is only to get you started. If you suffer from any of these negative headspaces, I want you to rewire to the words below and work it out on the WHY? So why would emptiness be community? You will start to see so many reasons, and your brain starts to rewire, so the next negative thoughts you have will soon come and go. You will be able to deal with them in a much healthier way.
This week is about intentions! Have the courage to ask for the life you want!
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