I have been wondering how to write this post. I mean, the last thing everyone knew was hey I am in Portland, then hey I am back in Washington state. So I thought I would write about.
Portland was a lesson. Portland was a lesson that not only for myself but also my dear nephew whom I was sharing a house with to go through. Portland, was wonderful. I really liked Portland, even though the highways, caused me major anxiety, but I loved that I was so close to everything. But Portland, was also bringing about a lot of door closures. The weather was delaying my husband from moving our household goods, my husband's work was having nothing but problems trying to hire people to take his place, even though my husband was slated to transfer to Portland. At one point my husband was one of two people doing his job, the universe did not want my husband there. The universe wanted me in Portland, but not my husband. We was separated. It was so difficult. Here we was homeless for so long and finally had a place to go, and everything was keeping us apart. But for me, I had to be in Portland at the time. I do not regret my time in Portland, it happened for a reason. Lessons was learned. But I was sadden when I had to return back to Washington last month. It broke my heart, but also I was happy because I was near my husband and my rock.
Last month, I thought to myself here we go again, I am staying with my soul sister. Which since last June, we had been staying there due to our homelessness. I ask the universe within myself, there needs to be a change. As I was now feeling like a burden on my soul sister. Let me note, I am far from a burden, but I am respectful of my sister, therefore asking her to not only to take me in, but now my son whom flew out to live in January. It weighs heavy on your heart, you do the things you can to help out etc, but it is her house and her things and you start to feel in the way after awhile, because this was only suppose to be a temporary thing not a permanent gig. As you can tell, this has been a huge struggle for me. So yes, when I asked the universe within, I just proclaimed a surrender.
I started to look for housing. I started the process all over again, prepared myself a little better this time. I don't carry credit cards, and don't have a credit score above 600 therefore I knew the process was going to be hard. But I took deep breathes and formulated a plan- I allowed the road to be open.
See Portland taught me what I really wanted, so allowing myself to be open to what I really wanted instead of settling, I allowed the laws of success to come my way. The manifestations of not only what my husband wanted, but what my son needs and I need in life. My family will be taking over as caretakers for a dog sanctuary. I am beyond the moon about this. The best part of this experience, is not only will I be helping out animals but humans as well, since we will be having volunteers out there from different various programs. So as the door closed in Portland, the road opened for us in Washington.
Hands of Hope Sanctuary will be our new home. I will continue to do my practices out there once we relocated. I can not wait to share with everyone the happiness and peace. Never be afraid if a door closes, because the road is just opening up.
I took myself off facebook, yet this will be posting on facebook, irony. I have however for the sake of social media I had scheduled posts already before making the leap off for the week after Christmas. It was a clearing of my head. The first few days, boredom took over. I don't have my other auto and the rain has given me cabin fever of sorts. But yesterday I was able to get outside. Fresh air at 38F. Well needed.
Like most of the end of the years I reflect and thankful for what the year gave me and what it did not give me. The highs and the lows. The growths and the many blessings thru all the struggles this year. I got really bad news yesterday about my dad. It was news I did not want to hear. I know in 2016 I will have more struggles and some lows. I also I will have some very awesome highs because the universe is very awesome and loves me and has my back.
I got a few calls today, one was thanking me for posting the video on facebook today, it was just what they needed to hear. Which I found comforting in my own way, earlier this week right after I had posted the other video. A another text came in from someone else I know that begged me to not stop making my videos. This was from someone I had known for a long time. I was unaware that she even watched any of my videos. She told me she watched all of them, and they changed her life. I told her thanks, the universe sent me that message just in time. I had been struggling so much of late. I have so much of finding my words due to my disability. i am very educated, but this year has been the worse year for me health wise. But the universe had my back this year, I have been blessed with amazing doctors. I am finally after many years getting the help I need. Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes you get thrown on a path where you wonder why you get thrown on. I always tell people, you have to be patient there is a reason. Don't question. Even when you think the world is going to shit around you, trust that there will be good coming out of the muck. Sometimes you have to go thru a little rough waters.
I think in life it's if you want to fight it, or let go of ego and go with it. You can try and try and try and try and try.....but there is a point you just have to let go and trust in where the universe is going to lead you. Don't get me wrong you are your own compass, but if you fight certain things where the universe is pushing you towards- honey hang up your compass and just let go. That is the greatest lesson I learned when we packed up our life savings, husband quit his job of 18 years and we moved to the PNW. By the grace of the universe, our rent is paid monthly ( and trust me the months we are talkings pennies on making that rent payment) so we still have a roof over our head. So that I count my blessings and ever grateful, but I had to hang my own compass to trust that there is a reason why my husband has not found the better paying job yet. There is a reason for A-B-C- and you know...I have some health stuff that came up if I have private insurance I could not pay for. So I look at the positive side, maybe this is what the universe has in store and after this test then it will fall in place, so this is what lays ahead for 2016. And you know what.....universe keeps telling me I am not meant to work a 9-5 job anyways. I meant to focus on being Hamsa Sandra, because now more and more people are being vocal- and I will be honest, sometimes I tap the mic and wonder " is this thing on?"
2016 is upon us...I am ready to be my best for you. I tap into source all the time and I have messages I want to get across. But I am also cautious. I want the messages to be heard to those who are hungry for it. Who are willing to do the work, who are willing to invest in themselves.
I wish everyone Love and Light! PS- There is specials going on in the stores! FYI!! Heads up!!
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