I have been doing a lot of reflecting this 2018 and as 2019 approaches here in a few short hours, I am on the rise of my priorities. One of those principles in my priorities is changing my own algorithm in life. I have been thinking about algorithms of late due to my own spiritual studies and my upcoming paper I need to write, but most importantly it was the changes in my own life that have lead me.
In the world of social media, social construct of now social media stars are a legitimate business, everyone wants to be in this strange reality of perfection. In life, now via the internet our world is controlled very much like Netflix show of Bandersnatch, the choices we make are a narrative of the choices we make online with our likes, dislikes and shares. Adverts are now geared by our thought process and key words we write or in some strange reality we think. We have devices in our home to ask questions, which in news reports are recording our private moments. Data mining with funny quizzes, surveys and even or DNA.
This is the world we live in, the future is very unknown. However, we can change our personal algorithms. By the energies we choose to focus out in the world.
We can start small. Being a positive influence, change our negative thinking into positive thinking. Social media is a norm, some choose to live with it. I personally am one of those people. I am very open, I use social media on regular base in my personal life and here on a business side of the house. However, although I probably should use it more in business, I do not. I don't have the budget nor have been a person to self promote. I have always been the word of mouth gal, this is how I have chosen to live my life. I don't strive to be like another person. I have been told, I should be like "insert popular name here as I choose not to name", this quite frankly always bothered me. I would shake my head and say yeah, yeah but deep inside, I am me. I am myself. I want to be know for me just being me, not like some generic comparison. This is how I have in my life, slowly working on my own algorithm. For the month of January, I have decided to take a small social media break on my personal page of the famous social media that now seems to be as normal reading like a Sunday paper. I am still on my personal photo social media platform as that is so ingrained in my being, that makes me whole, I love sharing quotes, positive vibes and random photos. My photo social media is not an "paid influencer", however I do consider myself a positive vibe influencer. That is my personal algorithm I choose to lead in the world.
I am choosing to take the month off as a social experiment myself. How will my leaving the world of hearts, likes, sad and angry emojis change the direction of who I see online or what my feed sends to me. I am changing the personal algorithm, that this new world chooses to for me. Taking back a little control in my life, maybe? It doesn't cause me anxiety, however yes, there are days, I get sucked in the rabbit hole and get pissed off about the state of affairs in our world. Thus I see how much, the state of affairs is controlled by big media, misinformation, people not thinking for themselves. I think that is what may make that anger rise, is the lack of control that people are having within their own lives. People not thinking for themselves. Not being authentic. Are we losing our humanity? Changing direction is not easy, but it begins with you.
I wish everyone has the best 2019!
Well, it has been some busy months since I last posted. I started a new job within my community. I had shoulder surgery last month, along with moving and currently getting ready to host an exchange student for the school year. WE are beyond excited for these next chapters in our life. Everything I feel we have been manifesting is now here. It has been a long road, a difficult one as well, but we finally are on that road.
We (husband and I) had to let go of alot of things from our past, when we moved from Washington alot of personal things and material things were left behind, some by choice, some by forgetfulness of being sick and mentally drained and exhausted. Everyone in my family was sick, when we, left Washington state, my husband's blood pressure was in the above 240, we all lost so much weight it was literally making us ill. Mentally, I lost myself to the point I checked myself into a critical care unit. I have a full blown nervious breakdown, where my body, just gave up. It broke down. We was not living our best life. We was more concerned about everyone else's needs, we forgotten about our own needs. So our own egos, had to let go of that behavior. It was time to take care of one self.
I have done mini workshops here about on self care, yet as a teacher I was not using my own practices. So yes, it was time to recenter and CHANGE.
We all have the road that life throws in front of us, I once stated this many times before, that road might be a smooth one or it might be one hell of a ride with lots of detours and contruction, however the road leads you to where you will go in the end. The part as a human being is to remember to keep your intentions and thought patterns on the positive part of that end result. Not to get stuck in the negative. If you do get stuck in the negative traffic of your life journey, remember that it is only temporary. Pray, say your affirmations or do what works for you to reset your mind. Your mind, is a computer. There are times, that computer needs a little cleaning up and a reboot. Don't be afraid. Trust me, there is some wonderful parts in that scary journey that are total lessons and when you get past that part of the journey and look back- you will understand how blessed you actually are.
Change and letting go you will lose things along the way, but remind yourself, that the things you lost have served their purpose in your life. As much as it may hurt when you look upon the things you have lost, remember the good in all of it. Don't get stuck. Don't feed the hurt it serves no purpose to you only hurt. Don't punish yourself. Especially for things that are beyond your control. I have always believed that God places things in our life because that is part our story in our book of life, I don't know why I feel like this book as been written with strange story lines so others can learn and grow or within ourselves we have a destiny greater than we can imagine after we are long gone from this planet we call earth. In history we have the souls that went through some really hard times, such as Telsa, Van Gough etc..., yet these people are remembered for some of the greatest works. I am sure when they were alive they were just like the rest of us, living ordinary lives. Trying to change themselves to make the world a better place, but feeling so small in the greater space of life. Yet, many years after their deaths, see how they have made the world a better place. That was part of the story, in their storybook of life. The story moves on. I know it is a strange concept and thought to have, but it is part of change and letting go after all.
I rather live in a world where I am happy in the moment, instead of being miserable. I rather live in a world where I am ok with myself and not worried about pleasing others. I rather live in a world, where I control my own pain and let go of it. Where foregiveness is for myself, because I deserve the peace.
What are you going to CHANGE today? The choice is all yours.
I am using the term Pagan loosely here, but for the sake of this blog- we are going to use the term "pagan" for any non Christian spiritual path- so just not the Wiccan path. Spiritual paths with karmic law- do no harm.
I think people often wonder what "religion" I am, and often surprised when my knowledge comes forth, or for the fact I am a minister, yet I do not define myself with one religion. I am a Metaphysician- I have my degree and working on my other 2 degrees. With this, it has taught me, things I was fully already aware of- that God/Universe is within me. I am the light. I suppose if you want to define that, some call it New Thought. I personally, still call myself- just spiritual.
New Thought, does work with the bible, however it looks at it from a metaphysical standpoint. Afterall, it is one of the greatest religious texts ever written, and dismissing it would be like dismissing any spiritual awareness text. The bible like any other book is a tool. How the tool is used, however can define a person- good or bad. Misuse, which has happen in most religions that have a text. We have wars in the world, due to the misuse. People, not agreeing with each other, so rather fight. The interesting point with religious texts, is there is either an extreme side or a very loose side. Sometimes, you get a happy middle.
My family has always had its fair share of preachers- I guess you can say it is wired in our DNA. I can look down the street and see one of the churches that my family built in the late 1800s. I think all the men, except my father, was some type of preacher/decon in the church. My brother is also a Chaplain, he follows a much differnt path than, he is a creationist. It is not my view, but it is what he believes and I respect. Which leads us to those comparative lesssons.
I have studied many spiritual paths, taking differnt religion courses when I can. I have done this in my life, to expand my knowledge. Also, as the starseed that I am- I know that there is so much more. In this vast universe we are in. We are not alone, there is more out there than our own universe. Before modern day Christianity, there was native religions, far reaching and far knowledgable that we can see. Thus the "pagan" paths. This had to come from the stars, this had to come from the higher power, the plug we all have- God within.
I had a lovely reminder of this this past week, when my phone went off for my daily bible verse- it was a Romans 12 verse. Actually Romans 12:2 (NLT) " Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect." This verse speaks exactly of our actions, our thoughts are responsible for our daily living. If we let God/Universe or the whatever divine that you have your "faith" in, a divine living will be made in your life. Think of it as a Law of Attraction. Yes, this is a bible verse that transends all faiths.
We have karmic laws of do no harm to others and love one another, that surpasses just Christianity- it is in Eastern faiths, Islamic, Jewish and of course pagan faiths. Once again in Romans 12 we have this play out again. Romans 12: 8-10 (NLT) " 8. If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly. 9. Don't pertend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. 10. Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other." This could not be more clear. Yet, in today's society, the news is full of hate and negative. Even friendships, family and more are swirling in a negative vortex. Only feeding the negative fires until one another breaks. Be the good in the world. Use the gifts that the universe has given you for good.
Romans 12:20-21 (NLT) " 20. Instead, " If your enemies are hungry, feed them. If they are thirsty, give them something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals of shame on their heads." 21. Don't let evil conquer you, but conquer evil by doing good." Don't take revenge on someone whom has done you wrong, they know they have done you "dirty" that is something they have to live with. It is not our job to take matters in our own hands. And remember no matter what "faith" you follow- good conquers evil.
Romans 12 proves that if you are Christian or "pagan" or anything that falls in some realm of spiritual practice, use good and God/universe has divine blessings. Your body is the a living spirit. No matter what faith you follow, treat it well.
Have respect for other faiths, just because one may not typically have your view, honor them and love them. Do not debate with them and tell them they are wrong. Next time someone wants to debate you on religious matters, remind yourself there are native tribes that most likely have never even heard of most of our common faiths. That most religious texts have been translated over and over and everyone has thier own opinion on what is the "correct" translations- an english translation is not going to be the same as an slavic, greek, spanish, french and so on translation. There is not right and there is no wrong when it comes to religion- that is why it is called 'faith'.
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