I have been doing a lot of reflecting this 2018 and as 2019 approaches here in a few short hours, I am on the rise of my priorities. One of those principles in my priorities is changing my own algorithm in life. I have been thinking about algorithms of late due to my own spiritual studies and my upcoming paper I need to write, but most importantly it was the changes in my own life that have lead me.
In the world of social media, social construct of now social media stars are a legitimate business, everyone wants to be in this strange reality of perfection. In life, now via the internet our world is controlled very much like Netflix show of Bandersnatch, the choices we make are a narrative of the choices we make online with our likes, dislikes and shares. Adverts are now geared by our thought process and key words we write or in some strange reality we think. We have devices in our home to ask questions, which in news reports are recording our private moments. Data mining with funny quizzes, surveys and even or DNA.
This is the world we live in, the future is very unknown. However, we can change our personal algorithms. By the energies we choose to focus out in the world.
We can start small. Being a positive influence, change our negative thinking into positive thinking. Social media is a norm, some choose to live with it. I personally am one of those people. I am very open, I use social media on regular base in my personal life and here on a business side of the house. However, although I probably should use it more in business, I do not. I don't have the budget nor have been a person to self promote. I have always been the word of mouth gal, this is how I have chosen to live my life. I don't strive to be like another person. I have been told, I should be like "insert popular name here as I choose not to name", this quite frankly always bothered me. I would shake my head and say yeah, yeah but deep inside, I am me. I am myself. I want to be know for me just being me, not like some generic comparison. This is how I have in my life, slowly working on my own algorithm. For the month of January, I have decided to take a small social media break on my personal page of the famous social media that now seems to be as normal reading like a Sunday paper. I am still on my personal photo social media platform as that is so ingrained in my being, that makes me whole, I love sharing quotes, positive vibes and random photos. My photo social media is not an "paid influencer", however I do consider myself a positive vibe influencer. That is my personal algorithm I choose to lead in the world.
I am choosing to take the month off as a social experiment myself. How will my leaving the world of hearts, likes, sad and angry emojis change the direction of who I see online or what my feed sends to me. I am changing the personal algorithm, that this new world chooses to for me. Taking back a little control in my life, maybe? It doesn't cause me anxiety, however yes, there are days, I get sucked in the rabbit hole and get pissed off about the state of affairs in our world. Thus I see how much, the state of affairs is controlled by big media, misinformation, people not thinking for themselves. I think that is what may make that anger rise, is the lack of control that people are having within their own lives. People not thinking for themselves. Not being authentic. Are we losing our humanity? Changing direction is not easy, but it begins with you.
I wish everyone has the best 2019!
Well, it has been some busy months since I last posted. I started a new job within my community. I had shoulder surgery last month, along with moving and currently getting ready to host an exchange student for the school year. WE are beyond excited for these next chapters in our life. Everything I feel we have been manifesting is now here. It has been a long road, a difficult one as well, but we finally are on that road.
We (husband and I) had to let go of alot of things from our past, when we moved from Washington alot of personal things and material things were left behind, some by choice, some by forgetfulness of being sick and mentally drained and exhausted. Everyone in my family was sick, when we, left Washington state, my husband's blood pressure was in the above 240, we all lost so much weight it was literally making us ill. Mentally, I lost myself to the point I checked myself into a critical care unit. I have a full blown nervious breakdown, where my body, just gave up. It broke down. We was not living our best life. We was more concerned about everyone else's needs, we forgotten about our own needs. So our own egos, had to let go of that behavior. It was time to take care of one self.
I have done mini workshops here about on self care, yet as a teacher I was not using my own practices. So yes, it was time to recenter and CHANGE.
We all have the road that life throws in front of us, I once stated this many times before, that road might be a smooth one or it might be one hell of a ride with lots of detours and contruction, however the road leads you to where you will go in the end. The part as a human being is to remember to keep your intentions and thought patterns on the positive part of that end result. Not to get stuck in the negative. If you do get stuck in the negative traffic of your life journey, remember that it is only temporary. Pray, say your affirmations or do what works for you to reset your mind. Your mind, is a computer. There are times, that computer needs a little cleaning up and a reboot. Don't be afraid. Trust me, there is some wonderful parts in that scary journey that are total lessons and when you get past that part of the journey and look back- you will understand how blessed you actually are.
Change and letting go you will lose things along the way, but remind yourself, that the things you lost have served their purpose in your life. As much as it may hurt when you look upon the things you have lost, remember the good in all of it. Don't get stuck. Don't feed the hurt it serves no purpose to you only hurt. Don't punish yourself. Especially for things that are beyond your control. I have always believed that God places things in our life because that is part our story in our book of life, I don't know why I feel like this book as been written with strange story lines so others can learn and grow or within ourselves we have a destiny greater than we can imagine after we are long gone from this planet we call earth. In history we have the souls that went through some really hard times, such as Telsa, Van Gough etc..., yet these people are remembered for some of the greatest works. I am sure when they were alive they were just like the rest of us, living ordinary lives. Trying to change themselves to make the world a better place, but feeling so small in the greater space of life. Yet, many years after their deaths, see how they have made the world a better place. That was part of the story, in their storybook of life. The story moves on. I know it is a strange concept and thought to have, but it is part of change and letting go after all.
I rather live in a world where I am happy in the moment, instead of being miserable. I rather live in a world where I am ok with myself and not worried about pleasing others. I rather live in a world, where I control my own pain and let go of it. Where foregiveness is for myself, because I deserve the peace.
What are you going to CHANGE today? The choice is all yours.
i am no longer in Washington state and currently on an extended camping trip to get back in touch with myself. I have been going through some personal battles, that have left me mentally broken. Therefore am taking time to reconnect myself. I am finding my light out the darkness. I have some of my cards so able to do card readings, however other services are on hold.
As a healer I must take care of myself. I am grateful. For those whom suffer from complex PTSD, anxiety and other health issues- you are not alone. I know this, cause I have been feeling that loneliness and have found the right people do come into your life, even if it’s a brief moment.
As I reconnect with myself and go through a transition of relocating, I find this more true every day. May everyone stay blessed.
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