Today has been one of those days, where everything in my spirit has just gone wrong. My emotional wheel has been challenged to the max. I have been riding the roller coaster of just plain shite.
It started feeling out of my comfort zone and well I slept in my car, because of said feelings. I had to go into a bubble and my car was my bubble of safe zone. It was my happy place for the moment. It was the only spot I could for that moment to calm me down and center myself. Where I could go into a meditation and the world could stop. I suffer from high anxiety and last night was one of those nights. So I retreated. Was it the most healthy place to find happiness? No, actually it was very uncomfortable and I slept like shit. Oh warning, foul language will be in this post.
So out of my morning my darling soul daughter arrived. She knew I had an awful night so was being extra awesome as a kid. Then mail came. Actually it was Sat mail. I don't know no one got it. Oddly I had the urge and had called about the issue on Friday, what I actually got in the mail. BAM! As you may know I have been trying to get my SSI. I was denied. So now I have to go thru the process of appeal. This crushed my day further.
My husband and I are barely surviving. Husband is working a job that pays barely above min wage and if he gets hours since he part time. This is his temporary job while he looks for the higher pay job in his actual line of work. This job is not covering our rent, our bills...we have had earth angels the past 2 months pay our rent. This is the only reason we are not on the street. My doctors are the ones who suggested that I make that choice of taking off my super woman cape and stop working. And as a lightworker this is not a full time job. Work is not steady. I don't work in a shop, never have. I work whatever the universe gives to me. HELLO, just a few years ago I started to charge- cause far to many people took advantage of me.
Am I pissed? Of course. Am I trying to find the happiness of course I am. Actually as I am writing this I am listening to a mix I made for someone. I am trying to remind myself of the good I am. The worth I am. I am having a shitty day. I am not giving up. I am overwhelmed by what I have to do next. I have memory issues so going to let a third party handle this. I have to find my own happiness out of this or it will consume me more than it already is and has. The money stresses and my unemployment and just family status is the number one stress that consumes me. But I have to keep finding my light every mother fucking day.
Yes, Lightworkers have bad days too. We have have to practice what we preach. Some days it is very, very hard too. I am thankful I am a positive person, cause I know if I was the person I was 20 years ago I would of offed my head already.
The point I am making it is okay to have bad days. We are human. I have them. I know I can't give up. As much as times I really want to. I know I can't. I have to find that glimmer of happiness. The universe gives us what we can handle. We may feel that we can't- trust me I don't feel that I can handle all this shite right now, but somehow I am mange. I am lucky I have my support system here. I could not do it with out my soul sister. Who herself understands exactly every moment herself. Buddy system keeping each other afloat emotionally. KJT LOVE YOU.
Every day in every way things get better and better....
I guess this is my warning label. When you have a cleansing or any type of spiritual detox done your body may react. I have personally have had clients react in several differ ways including myself I have had my own issues with detoxification with attunements after Reiki. So I thought why not write a blog post about it.
Like any type of detox your body is getting rid of all the yucky stuff. You may just feel awesome and great the day of your treatment and then suddenly all this yucky feeling overcomes you. Any Energy Cleansing releases the blockages in your system, allowing your body to heal naturally. Part of that natural healing process is ridding the body of unwanted toxins that have contributed to your problems. You know all that "yucky stuff".
So one of the greatest things after a treatment I tell my clients is to drink water. I will make clients drink a full glass of water after a treatment. I literally will watch them. In Texas I kept a water cooler in my meditation room and non stop water buffet after sessions. I also made sure clients had water when they left. Why? If you don't drink water you don't flush your system. And you can "get sick". Yes, this has happen. But don't stress, you will feel better afterwards. Remember your body has been thru this amazing transformation.
If this happens there are ways to manage the side effects of the deep cleanse:
So what are the possible side effects: Physical symptoms - headaches, stomach upsets, coughs, colds, spots Emotional symptoms - mood swings, tears, anger, guilt, irritability and more.
Remember no matter what you are feeling this is unleashing your emotional well being. You will start to feel better. It is a tune up for your soul.
Remember not everyone experiences this, I have just found lately that when I have been working with clients of late and including myself in my own attunements, these are things that can happen. I want you to be aware and not caught off guard.
I will let you know lately I seem to be doing some very heavy hoodoo and removing heavy toxins out of people systems so been having these issues more of the later. Including my own husband, who was very ill the next morning after me doing an intense Reiki session where he stated he saw a small child leave his body and run down the hallway. I have had other people in the past be very emotional, with vivid dreams, feeling lightheaded, feeling not of earth. Everyone is not the same. Your experience is your experience.
I also have the question how often should I have energy work done then? My answer to that is the universe will let you know. Some need it more than once a week. Some need it once a month, others need it maybe every few months. What you feel you need to do, is up to you. I do not think it is ethical for any energy healer to state you need to xyz amount every xyz days. I am sorry, yes, you can suggest- but to make it like a doctor's appointment is wrong. Your body will let you know. Your body needs to adjust from each cleansing and spiritual detox.
Love Light and Namaste
So we are going to talk about a touchy subject for some emotions. Emotions balance who we are and shape how we feel daily. More important they effect our chakra systems. We actually have 22 chakra points, however you may have heard of the main 7. Which I have listed below. I am not going to get in huge detail about each one of the chakras today, however as you can see each one is tied to an emotion or feeling. It is tied into a power, a energy. Here is the deal on a daily base, our chakras are always out of balance, say what? Did I just say that? But why?
Here is the emotional wheel, like the color wheel the emotional wheel acts the same way. Every emotion has its cause and effect. For example we will use the emotion MAD- when you are mad, you have emotions attached to being mad, such as which are on the wheel hurt, hostile etc. This can lead to actions of being distant, frustrated etc. This emotion, can be tied into all of our chakra systems. In order to counteract these emotions, you have to basically go to the other side of the wheel.
So here is the flipside of the wheel, the positive side of the house. Joyful, Powerful and Peaceful side of the house. So the idea is when you are feeling the other side of the wheel to seek out this side of the wheel. For example. That MAD emotion earlier you was feeling, you can turn that into something POWERFUL, basically you are taking back the power that was taken away from you. Ask yourself a few questions? Why am I am I angry? Is this really important? Will this be important 10 minutes from now? 24 hours from now? A year from now? This happens a lot with our daily lives. As a society we tend to get mad over silly things, we allow that to take power over us, so the we need to be AWARE of what and why. Life is to short.
This emotional wheel goes around and around, endless cycle. We just need to be more aware of how to use it. Take a look at the wheel as see how it works in your life. Life is all about balance.
So chakra systems have the same effect. We are never 100% in balance. Sorry, to tell you it does not matter how "enlighten" you are the chakra systems will never be 100%. OMG, you are saying this and you are a "guru". I am saying this as a messenger. I don't care what bullshit you read out there, chakra systems are always in need of work. They change daily. Every day, they need balance. One day, your throat chakra will be fine the next it might be so open that you feel so out of touch. This is why keeping our emotions is so important to balance. Not only our emotions affect the chakra systems, but what we do on a daily base. What we choose to surround ourselves. So my question to you- How do you choose to live your life?
So this is just one of the tools in life you can use to help keep your emotional balance, in turn which will help keep your chakra health in check. Remember change your language, change the way you think and reclaim the power within yourself.
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